i cheated myself like i knew i would
i told you i was trouble
you know that i’m no good
A chemical defect found on the losing side.
i just have a lot of feelings about sherlock. because literally half of what he says and does is because he has this stupid image of who he wants to be. AND HE THINKS HE IS THIS HIGH FUNCTIONING SOCIOPATH. HE ACTUALLY DOES. but it’s such a gross gigantic facade because yeah, he’s different, and he’s probably been teased and had that exploited since he was a kid (mycroft asking him why he’s pursuing the magnussen case; “because he preys on people that are different” OH GOD). LIKE HIS COVER IS SO DEEP THAT HE EVEN PRETENDS TO NOT SYMPATHIZE WITH A COUPLE HAVING TO PUT A DOG DOWN IN THE HOUNDS OF BASKERVILLE. BUT HE’S *GONE* THROUGH THAT. HE’S GONE THROUGH THE EMOTIONAL TRAUMA OF LOSING YOUR FURRY BEST FRIEND BUT NOPE SHERLOCK HOLMES AND THIS PICTURE HE HAS OF HIMSELF IN HIS HEAD DOESN’T LET ~SENTIMENT GET IN THE WAY BUT YOU BLOODY FOOL YOU REALLY DO DON’T YOU? YOU CAN PRETEND TO SHUT IT OFF BUT IT’S ALL JUST SUCH A BIG RUSE SO YOU WON’T HAVE TO FEEL PAIN, HURT, SORROW, LOSS. THAT’S WHY THERE’S AN INSANE MORIARTY IN HIS HEAD BECAUSE HE THINKS HE DOESN’T FEEL THOSE THINGS. BECAUSE SHERLOCK DOES, AND HE’S ENVIOUS THAT HE THINKS JIM DOESN’T. AND LIKE THE SIZE OF HIS SELF ESTEEM OH MY GOD DID YOU GUYS *HEAR* HIS SPEECH AND WHAT HE THINKS OF HIMSELF? THIS MAN.
wow, i’m sorry. i don’t know where all that came from.
“What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies.”